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Days 5, 6, & 7: Work, Helping Someone, & Cleaning Out My Closet

Days 5, 6, & 7: Work, Helping Someone, & Cleaning Out My Closet

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Okay I fell a little behind with my 30 Days Proud Project, but I had a busy weekend.

Day 6

I’m proud of my accomplishments at work. I work for a company that services healthcare professionals, and we were just rated #8 on a top ten companies list compiled by independent healthcare professionals who use our services. I think my efforts are part of the reason we made this list for the first time. I’m also proud that I have expanded the company’s reach in the past year and a half I’ve worked there. I believe my efforts have led to many new leads for the company and that I have contributed to the company’s success. I truly love my job and feel blessed to work alongside so many great people.

Day 7

I received some interesting and unexpected response from Day 5 of my 30 Days Proud project. A few people contacted me directly to thank me for sharing, saying they’ve been through similar experiences while struggling with depression and anxiety.

On Saturday night, I received a message from a Facebook friend who said one of her relatives was struggling with severe mental illness. He had an appointment with a therapist, but couldn’t get in until the end of January. She wondered if I could call him and offer support and encouragement.

At first I was scared, because I’m not a trained professional. While I have experienced mental illness, I am not trained to counsel anyone with mental illness. Also, I’m INCREDIBLY shy and awkward over the phone.

But then I thought back to a friend who helped me when I was struggling with depression badly. Her name is Sondy, and she was one of the only people in the world who made me feel like I wasn’t alone in my severe depression and hopelessness. She shared her story with me about how she attempted suicide after a series of medical problems.

The thing was, Sondy was the person I LEAST expected to suffer from depression and attempt suicide. She was so full of life, brought joy into every room she entered, went to church, and loved the Lord. She put on a fantastic front for a long time. But even SHE felt, at one point, that she was a burden to everyone and tried to end her life.

So I picked up the phone and called John (name changed). The conversation seemed to go well, and he expressed that talking to me helped.

I met with John on Sunday morning for coffee so we could talk more. I offered him some advice that I hope helped. John attends Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, and he said he struggled with being honest in the meetings. He too was accustomed to putting on a front because he didn’t want to “burden” anybody with his troubles. I encouraged him to be as honest in the meetings and therapy as he was with me.

Later Sunday night, John called me to say that he shared his honest thoughts in an AA meeting that day and he felt so much better. He also had many people approach him after the meeting to say they felt the same way and to thank him for sharing.

According to John, what I said to him helped. I’m glad that it did.

I am proud that I worked up the courage to call and meet with John. That is something I wouldn’t normally do. And it seems that I helped in my small way. So I am glad.

Day 8

My husband and I did a lot of cleaning and organizing Sunday. I am proud that I began to clean my closet and parted with many things I didn’t need. I now have a bag full of clothing that will go to those in need.

I’m also proud I didn’t lose my mind during the New England Patriots game on Saturday. Yeesh! That was a close one.

Day 5: I Got Help for Depression When I Needed It

Day 5: I Got Help for Depression When I Needed It

This is Day 5 of my 30 Days Proud Project. In the above video, I share some very personal things that I wouldn’t have dreamed of sharing with you years ago. But after what I’ve experienced, I feel the message is incredibly important.

There continues to be a huge stigma about mental illness in the United States and around the world, and I believe talking about it honestly and openly is important so other people who are struggling understand that they are not alone are are encouraged to get the help they need.

I am re-sharing a blog I wrote about a year ago. In it, I share what life changes helped me get better in addition to undergoing therapy. I’m really proud of how far I’ve come in my recovery by continuing to implement these steps.

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  • Practicing Gratitude Daily. This has made a HUGE difference in my life. I highly recommend One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by the amazing Ann Voskamp. In 2013 I made it a point to count my blessings daily and to be joyous for others’ successes. I didn’t realize how blessed I was until I made time to document life’s large and small blessings and thank God for them.
  • Trusting God. Even when I stopped believing He was present, He was still there. While God didn’t magically appear in front of me Old Testament-style, He showed up through my husband, my friends, my therapists, my family, and more. God put the right people in my life at the right time. He also taught me important lessons when I was ready to receive them.
  • Exercising and Eating Right. This has been so important to my overall happiness. At the beginning of 2013, I had to force myself to go to the gym and work out. Now, my day is not complete without exercise. I’ve also noticed how much eating right contributes to my happiness. Whenever I eat fast food or other unhealthy options now, I notice how depressed and lethargic that food can make me. Energy-inducing food like proteins, fruits, vegetables, and “good” carbs are important to one’s overall well-being.
  • Changing Location and Environment. For various reasons, where I was and what I was doing at this time last year was not making me happy. My daily environment had the tendency to be negative, and it greatly contributed to my unhappiness without my realizing it. While it was already part of our plans to do so, moving and changing jobs this year were the best things my husband and I could have done. We are much happier in our new environment and the future feels bright.
  • Recognizing Triggers and Avoiding Them When Possible. People who struggle with depression and anxiety often have “triggers” that can jump-start negative feelings. I’ve learned to recognize my triggers and avoid them when possible. Sometimes that means doing something really hard, like cutting people out of your life that you recognize as toxic, or keeping those people at arm’s length. I’ve done this. It’s been hard, but worth it.
  • Getting Enough Sleep. I joke with my friends now that 9 p.m. is past my bedtime because I’m “old.” But I’m serious! Not getting enough sleep makes me really moody, and I recognize that. It is so important to get enough sleep. I understand this isn’t an option for everyone, but try to sleep more if you can. It will bring out the best in you.
  • Forgiving Myself and Others. I am not naturally a forgiving person, but I’m trying. I’ve learned forgiveness is the hardest thing a person can do, and sometimes the person you need to forgive the most is yourself. I’ve found forgiveness to be fluid, but that’s probably because I’m not smart enough yet to really get it. One day I forgive everything and love everybody, and the next day I don’t. This is something I continue to work on and attempt to fully understand in God’s time.
  • Living Presently. Living presently means you focus on today. You aren’t depressed about the past or anxious about the future. You recognize that what you did in the past doesn’t matter very much, because you were doing the best you could do with the knowledge you had at that time. This has helped me forgive myself for making stupid mistakes in my past. Each day, I try to do better with the knowledge I have.

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Day 3: Writing a Novel

Day 3: Writing a Novel

Welcome to Day 3 of my #30DaysProud project! Today I share how proud I am that I completed a novel. I participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) in 2012, and completed the required 50,000 words for the first draft of a novel.

The challenge was fun and I honestly saw some of my best writing blossom from it. I hope to someday take the opportunity to revise the novel I drafted and make something of it.

The working title of my novel is Amends. It is about a working class family in the Boston area who struggle with mental illness and addiction, and how they overcome their challenges through love. It is loosely based on some of my life experiences, but it is fictionalized.

An excerpt of my novel is below. In it, a priest relays the parable of the Prodigal Son. The Prodigal Son has always been one of my favorite stories in the Bible. The reason I feature it in the novel is because it somewhat mirrors what is going on with the family in the story.

I am sharing it via video and text, so read however you prefer. I hope you enjoy it.

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We always dress our best for Sunday Mass. I’m wearing a dark emerald green dress with white flowers on it and lace-looking ruffles at the sleeves and the bottom. Underneath, I’m wearing white underwear, white tights, and a white slip. My chestnut Dorothy Hamill cut bounces as I walk and my Mary Janes click along the sidewalk in front of St. Paul’s.

I hate my haircut. It makes me look and feel like a boy, even when I’m wearing a dress. Mum loves it. She cuts it for me and says its easier to maintain. Whenever my hair grows long, it gets knotted up so badly that she has to cut it anyway. This keeps it under control. I’d rather have a rat’s nest of a hairdo than look like a boy, though.

Mum looks like a raven-haired Lady Di. Her short crop sports stylish waves. There are a few gray strands in it that you don’t notice unless you’re close to her. She wears a long string of fake pearls she got on sale at Filene’s Basement. They’re tied in the middle. She has large pearls in each ear that look more like mini brooches than earrings.

During Mass, I think about everything but God. I think about my crush, Tommy. I think about the new Babysitter’s Club book I have at home that I want to start. I think about going to Brigham’s with Nana Teresa and Mum after Mass and what kind of ice cream sundae I’ll order.

The organ starts playing, and everyone begins to sing the song in the hymnal, number 336. I frantically turn the pages of the hymnal to find it. Father James and the altar boys come down the long aisle of St. Paul’s. One boy is carrying a cross and stands in front of Father James. The other follows Father James, and is carrying The Holy Bible. Father James carries incense, which he disperses as he walks down the aisle- moving his arms from side to side to capture both sides of the congregation. Mum hates the smell and covers her nose. I kind of like it.

St. Paul’s is one of the largest churches in New England, and wins the title for the longest aisle. During weddings at St. Paul’s, the organ player always has to play the wedding march slowly while the bride makes her way down the aisle.

I knew I was going to get married at St. Paul’s someday, with Father James officiating. I would probably marry Tommy Fiorentino. Mrs. Fiorentino always told us that Irish and Italian people always made the most beautiful babies. That’s why she married Tony Fiorentino.

Tommy was beautiful. He had jet black hair like James Bond, olive skin, and hazel eyes. I wish I was as good looking as him and his sister Christina.

Dad would walk me down the aisle and give me away to Tommy, who would wear a black tux, white vest, and white bow tie. Tommy and I would make beautiful babies together and live happily ever after.

Father James took his place at the altar.

“In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,” Father James said, as we all made the sign of the cross. Head, heart, left shoulder, right shoulder.

“Amen,” the congregation said.

“The Lord be with you,” Father James said.

“And also with you,” the robotic congregation responded.

“Lift up your hearts.”

“We lift them up to the Lo-ahd.”

“Let us give thanks to the Lord, our God.”

“It is right to give him thanks and praise.”

I may as well have been asleep through most of Mass every Sunday. Even the pew people- watching was boring… everyone was so well-behaved at St. Paul’s.

My favorite part of Mass is Father James’ message, the only part of Mass that wasn’t scripted.

After Father James got through the routine, which bored even him, he began:

“I’m sure many of you are familiar with the parable of The Prodigal Son. For those of you who aren’t familiar, this is a story that reveals the true nature of God and His unlimited forgiveness.

“This may surprise some of you, but God doesn’t care what you’ve done in the past, or how much of it you’ve done. God only cares about who you are today. Right here. Right now.

“In the parable of the Prodigal Son, documented in the Gospel of Luke, Jesus tells us about a father and his two sons. The older son is obedient, works hard, and does everything he can to please his father. He spends the money his father bestows to him wisely. He does everything ‘right.’

“The younger son is the complete opposite of the older son. He wants to get away from his father’s rule, and he leaves his father’s home the first chance he gets. He travels far. Let’s imagine it in modern terms. The younger son leaves the suburbs of Boston for the bright lights of Los Angeles. He wants to make it in the movies. He gets into the film business, makes important friends,  and squanders every cent his father gave him on fancy clothes, liquor, and women. He’s having a grand old time.

“Then a famine strikes Los Angeles. Suddenly, there’s no money for anything extravagant, and food prices increase as supplies run low. The younger son has never experienced such hardship. He struggles to survive. He begins working on a pig farm, and envies the pigs because they eat better than he does. Can you imagine wishing to eat what a pig eats?

“Finally, in desperation, the son journeys from Los Angeles all the way back home to Boston. He doesn’t know what else to do. He wishes for nothing more than to return to his father’s home and to tell his father that he is sorry. He has never felt so separated from his father, and that separation leaves him with an aching heart.

“And he’s embarrassed. He thinks, ‘Maybe I shouldn’t return home. What if my father is angry, or rejects me for disobeying him? What if he strikes me dead? Or worse, what if he takes one look at me and tells me never to come into his presence again?’

“Then he has an idea. He says, ‘I will apologize to my father and offer to be one of his hired servants. Even his servants are eating better than I am now!’ So he returns home.

“His father sees his young son coming down the road, his son, whom he hasn’t seen in years! Tears well up in his eyes. He is overjoyed that his son is alive and safe. He notices the terrible clothing his son wears- torn and tattered. He looks thin and frail. He doesn’t have a coat on, and he looks like he is freezing.

“He sees the look in his son’s eyes, a pitiable look. It is clear that the son realizes he has wronged his father.

“But the father doesn’t care about that. Instead, he sees that his son needs a coat, a hot meal, and a drink of water. The father is filled with compassion. He runs down the road to meet his son, throws his arms around him, and kisses him.

“The son says, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.’

“The father calls to his servants, ‘Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet: And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry.’”

Father James paused.

“For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.

Father James paused again.

“Some of us find this unfair. The older, obedient son certainly did. He thought, ‘Why should my brother be shown any compassion? He sinned! Here I am, having obeyed my father my entire life, and nobody’s throwing me a party, or celebrating!’ He refuses to enter the party and celebrate with everyone else. Instead, the older brother confronts his father.

“The father, in his wisdom, says to his son: ‘Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine. It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again’ and was lost, and is found.’

“The word of the Lord,” Father James concluded.

“Thanks be to God,” the congregation responded.

Day 2: Overcoming Culinary Challenges

Day 2: Overcoming Culinary Challenges

Guys… I got the BEST gift from my in-laws for Christmas: the official Thug Kitchen cookbook.

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OMG! I have followed Thug Kitchen on Facebook for about a year and am so excited to finally have the cookbook. All of their recipes sound sooooo scrumptious and healthy.

This week I tried three new recipes. Two from Thug Kitchen, and one from Pinterest.

I’ve probably mentioned here earlier that I am culinarily challenged. I REALLY lack confidence in the kitchen, but I LOVE to eat good food.

I think part of my lack of confidence comes from my depression/anxiety and not believing in myself enough. I have always convinced myself that I suck at cooking, and I usually approach new recipes with a lot of anxiety. I think my belief that I suck at cooking became a self-fulfilling prophecy.

This week I realized that I don’t suck at cooking. When I actually try and stop worrying about it, I’m not bad at all.

The Thug Kitchen cookbook aptly begins with the following quote from Julia Child:

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So I figured that from now forward I would approach cooking with a similar “what-the-hell” attitude. Sometimes recipes don’t come out right. Sometimes you just need more practice. WHO CARES. Don’t apologize. Ever.

The first thing I made this week was quinoa and broccoli burritos. I was expecting my husband to dislike them, because they don’t have meat and had the potential to be spicy (he can’t handle much spice). In fact, they turned out great and we both loved them.

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BAM! Sticking a tab on that recipe. Here’s a link to it if you’re interested. These burritos aren’t only delicious, they’re filling as fuck (now I’m slipping into Thug Kitchen speak!).

On New Year’s Day I made spiced apple waffles, which were posted on the Thug Kitchen Facebook page (they’re not in the cookbook, FYI).

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These turned out okay, but the consistency wasn’t perfect. I might have mixed them a little too much, or I didn’t cook them enough. Oh well… they were still good and worth a shot.

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The third thing I made this week was Crockpot Chicken Parmesan soup, a recipe I found on Pinterest. I wanted to make this because ever since we moved back to the Boston area, my husband has made it his mission to try Chicken Parmesan from every Italian restaurant we visit or order from (those who are not from the Boston area: we have A LOT of authentic Italian restaurants and it is the best stuff on this side of the Atlantic. If you visit this area, be sure to get some amazing Italian food and pastries in the historic North End of Boston).

I made this slow cooker Chicken Parmesan soup for Greg, my sister-in-law Bailey, and her boyfriend Steve. We ate nearly the entire pot between the four of us! I think it turned out well, and the three of them seemed to think so too. This is a great recipe to prepare for a cold day, or for a day of watching football on TV with friends. You could even bring it to your Superbowl party!

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What I learned this week is that you shouldn’t convince yourself that you suck at something without giving it a true shot. Also, be kind to yourself. If you don’t get it right the first time, there’s always next time!

And just for fun, here’s a picture of what I look like after dicing onions. My husband was laughing at me the entire time.

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So there’s my second day! Stay tuned to 28 more days of #30DaysProud!

Day 1 – Drinking Less

Day 1 – Drinking Less

Phew! Day 1 is DONE. I have to admit that video is VERY challenging for me. I am very self conscious of the way I look and the way I talk. That’s why I like to write, because you don’t have to see or listen to me!

But I wanted to explore video this year because it is very popular right now. Part of my hope for this project is to become a more confident speaker.

As I said, my husband and I had a great New Year’s Eve. Our friends Mike and Azad had a party and it was a lot of fun. We really enjoyed spending time with friends as well as Mike and Azad’s dogs.

Mike and Azad have several dogs, some that they own and some that they foster. Bruno, a pitbull/boxer mix, decided to snuggle next to me on the couch while we watched the ball drop. He is so adorable. Just look at this face:

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I also enjoyed spending time with Freddy, whose personality resembles a crotchety old man who you can’t help but love. Freddy doesn’t see very well, and whenever he came across a wall or corner he would start barking at it. As if he was saying,”Hey! Get out of my way, wall!”

This is Freddy in a dinosaur costume:

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Quick plug! Azad volunteers for a couple of Animal Rescue organizations: S.N.O.R.T. (Short Noses Only Rescue Team) and Save One Soul Animal Rescue League. If you live in the Boston area and are looking for a dog, please consider adopting from these wonderful organizations!

Anyway… I only had three beers at the party over the course of several hours. One of my goals for 2015 is to drink less. Mostly for health reasons (I gained back the 20 lbs. I worked so hard to lose last year… whoops), but also for financial reasons.

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The money I save will be put toward travel. I plan to make traveling more of a priority because I LOVE traveling. So every time I wish to buy beer or wine, I’m going to imagine myself drinking beer or wine in an exotic location I’ve never been to before.

So there.

Also, this year will be our 5th year wedding anniversary. I want to go on an awesome trip with my husband! We have a few ideas about where we want to go, but nothing is solidified yet. I will keep you posted!

Happy New Year, everyone! Stay tuned for more #30DaysProud posts!

Introduction: 30 Days Proud Project

Introduction: 30 Days Proud Project

Happy New Year, everyone!

As you can see from what I posted above, I am venturing into the world of video for the new year. That was about my 7th or 8th attempt. My first few attempts failed because I had to learn to speak CONFIDENTLY and not sound boring.

Seriously, I sounded like these ladies:

Good times, good times.

I don’t really do New Year’s resolutions, but this project just happened to coincide with the new year. I have depression, and this time of year is usually harder for me. I put on a good front for the sake of the holidays, but I tend not to feel too great inside.

I’m hoping that this project will give me more confidence and help me live more positively.

My husband challenged me to this project because he noticed that every time I talk about one of my accomplishments, I lace it with something negative.

For example, the other day he reminded me about how hard I worked to earn my bachelor’s degree. I immediately followed it up with, “But that was after I dropped out of college, and now most people I know have their master’s degrees.”

That’s my depression talking. So the rule he gave me was that any accomplishments I share or things that I’m proud of cannot be laced with any negativity. I cannot downplay my accomplishments in any way with statements like the above.

The things I’m proud of must also be my OWN accomplishments, or reasons why I think I’m awesome. So the other rule is that I cannot say things like, “I’m proud of my brother for __________.” Each day I have to share something about ME (as much as I love complimenting and recognizing other people).

So here goes! Join me on my journey and share what you’re proud of (if you feel inclined) by using the hashtag #30DaysProud. I intend to use video for this project, but you can share your #30DaysProud in a blog, social media post, etc.

Happy New Year, everyone! I look forward to sharing this project with you for the next 30 days!

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A Weekend to Remember… or Not

A Weekend to Remember… or Not

I wrote this on December 17th and forgot to fucking post it. BLAHHHH. So this is from 10 days ago. Enjoy anyway.

12/17/14.

I had a fun-filled weekend!

First, I visited the guys at the Worst Episode Ever Podcast for their Christmas special, Worst Christmas Show Ever. It is the first time I’ve been on the radio and I had a great time. We drank beer, discussed our favorite and least favorite Christmas songs, Christmas movies, and traditions. Then we played $25,000 Pyramid and Family Feud.

Lesson learned: I’m not great at Family Feud. But it might be because I was feeling a bit tipsy at that point.

Other things learned:

1. This is the worst Christmas song ever and sounds like something out of a South Park parody:

And what a terrible video, Jesus Christ! Why didn’t the guy at the register just give him the shoes for free? What a douche. And the guy in line behind the kid seems as though he feels like he’s doing this kid a huge favor by buying the Christmas shoes for his dying mom. Get over yourself, man.

2. I never realized this, but “Do They Know It’s Christmas” by Band Aid is really awful. My friend Adam educated us on this fact.

They’re singing about the children around the world who don’t get to experience Christmas. Then Bono comes in and belts,

“Well tonight thank God it’s them instead of you.”

And we wondered, what the fuck is that about? Thank God it’s them? What an awful thing to say.

And Bono sings it. So I said, “Bono could afford to provide Christmas to all of Africa if he wanted. But no, he’s just going to sit back, feel bad, and do nothing. Except sing this piece of shit song.”

Seriously. Listen to this shit:

Another point I need to make: The amount of coke Boy George likely bought the day he recorded this abomination could have also went toward an awesome Christmas, Kwanzaa, whatever, for the world’s starving children.

3. Apparently there is a Christmas tradition where people make it a game to find the pickle in the Christmas tree. I don’t know where the hell it comes from, but it’s gross.

4. Rob is an asshole (Listen to the podcast and you’ll learn why). No takesies-backsies for saying that awful shit to Adam. Around Christmas, no less!

5. Bane’s favorite things:

So… that was fun. Really. We recorded for about 3 hours and 45 minutes, and it went by incredibly fast (probably because we were drinking).

My friends may be assholes, but they’re my assholes.

Check out the full podcast.

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That’s essentially how it went.

Be sure to catch the next Worst Episode Ever on Saturday, January 3rd at 1:00 p.m. EST. Listen and chat live.

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Second, my husband and I were invited to a Pinterest Party on Saturday evening. To be honest, I rolled my eyes when I first received the invitation. Not at the party invite, but at myself.

Because although I can be a typical broad at times, I kind of suck at being a woman.

Due to the fact that I’m essentially a dude, I recently learned that a Pinterest Party is a party where you bring a food item you found the recipe for on Pinterest.

Sounds simple enough.

But I’m not a lady. And the entire idea of MAKING SOMETHING out of THE ORDINARY for A PARTY sounded like a fucking nightmare.

I’m not going to lie. I have an anxiety disorder, and cooking stresses me out. I tend to shy away from it. I try to learn more recipes to diversify my diet, but in the end, I could truly survive eating oatmeal or an English muffin three times a day. Anything that’s easy and doesn’t require a lot of ingredients or time.

And then I see all my lady friends on Facebook post how they made such-and-such and IT WAS SO DELICIOUS AND EASY OMG!!! And I feel like the biggest asshole of a wife.

Why can’t I be a LADY.

But every time I’m in front of the stove, nothing makes sense and everything is so MESSY and I NEED TO CLEAN IT NOW. Then I ruin the recipe by not timing everything right. And the broccoli or whatever is cold when I serve the piping hot entree. And then I need to heat the broccoli up in the microwave, which automatically makes it taste like shit, and then my entree is cold.

I can’t win.

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So I was dreading this party because I knew, being myself, I would only make one stupid, easy, thing. And I would feel like the unladiest of the ladies because I wasn’t creative as everyone else and all the things they brought would be super awesome and they would think I was lame.

My husband can bake, which is a lifesaver. So he planned to make a couple of pastries to bring. But then he was sick all week and didn’t want to make everyone else sick with a contaminated dish.

So I quickly whipped up the easiest thing I could possibly make that is not out of the ordinary: Spinach Artichoke Dip.

And it was fine. It was good. People told me it was good. So what the fuck is my problem?

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We drank. A lot. My friend Steve makes hot buttered rum every Christmas season, and every Christmas season we get wasted off of it.

My friend Lydia labeled everyone’s cup so we wouldn’t drink out of another person’s cup. On mine she wrote, “You’re Beautiful!” It honestly made my night.

There was a meteor shower later that night and we all gathered on the back deck of my friends’ Josh and Val’s house, marveling at the meteors dashing across the sky. While drinking hot buttered rum. And being pretty loud. Luckily, Josh and Val have nice neighbors who also enjoy tossing a few back.

I yelped at every meteor I saw, pointing so my friends could see them too. They did the same.

For whatever reason, I felt more alive the more meteors I saw. I savor such rare, natural wonders.

Throwback Poetry: In Honor of Emily Dickinson’s 184th Birthday

Throwback Poetry: In Honor of Emily Dickinson’s 184th Birthday

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Wednesday (Dec. 10th) was Emily Dickinson’s 184th birthday.

Dickinson’s poetry was introduced to me when I was 12 years old. I wrote poems here and there, mostly about nature. My poems reminded my Dad of Emily Dickinson’s poems. He bought me a book of her poetry and we also went to the local library to check out a biography about her.

She quickly became one of my favorite poets. She also happens to be from my home turf of Massachusetts, living the majority of her life in Amherst, Mass., where I went to college. I was fascinated to learn what a gentle and introverted soul she was, more than likely dealing with what is now recognized as agoraphobia and depression.

Dickinson spent much of her life observing the world from her bedroom window and through letters from friends and family. I am constantly amazed at how perceptive and brilliant she was amid her limited resources. She gave birth to American poetry at the same time as Walt Whitman did, perhaps without knowledge of Whitman’s work.

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Emily inspired me to continue writing poetry, gaining inspiration from the trees, the birds, the ocean, and all of the beautiful things nature offers.

Here are a few of these poems. I was about 12-13 when I wrote them.

In This Lovely Forest

Today I danced with butterflies
talked to the river
visited flowers
flew up to the sky
running through clouds
and climbed a tree
in this lovely forest.

Birds
having a friendly conversation with me
They said:
“The world is beautiful,
and everything in the world is beautiful.”
And I agree with them.

Flowers Are Pretty (Haiku)

Flowers are pretty
These bloom only in the Spring
Soon it will be Fall

The Light of Day

The sun sets on my heart
Leaving it in darkness
I hear you and the sun rises
I see you
Your face is the light of day

Swallowed

The ocean takes a deep breath
and Exhales
with its marvelous strength
and it’s horrible breath
onto the rocks
who have drowned every high tide.
The water breathes me in
swallows me whole
and I am no more.

On another note, remember when there was only one known photo of Emily Dickinson (above, at age 16)? According to the official Emily Dickinson Facebook page, there is now another!

The following photo was released in 2012 by Amherst College Archives and Special Collections and the Emily Dickinson Museum, in Amherst, Mass. It shows a copy of a circa 1860 daguerreotype purported to show a 30-year-old Emily Dickinson (left), with her friend Kate Scott Turner.

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HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! (Okay, I’m a nerd.) The frumpy civil war era hairstyle is unfortunate, but I am so glad we now have evidence of a much older, mature, and beautiful Emily Dickinson. Yay!

The Typical Broad’s Awesome Mix Vol. 1

The Typical Broad’s Awesome Mix Vol. 1

Guess what comes out on Blu-ray and DVD tomorrow? Only my FAVORITE Marvel movie to date: Guardians of the Galaxy!

How excited am I? Right now I’m so pumped that  I’m dancing like a Baby Groot.

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After watching Guardians of the Galaxy in the theaters this summer, I was inspired to create an “Awesome Mix” like the main character Peter Quill (aka Star-Lord), and I thought I would share it with you. Not only will these jams give you a dose of sunshine and rainbows, they’re also great to work out to!

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Peter’s Awesome Mix Vol. 1 often inspires him to dance, even during the most inopportune moments (which he usually turns into an opportunity to distract his enemies). I based my Awesome Mix on songs that would make me dance even if my enemies were pointing a weapon at me.

1. Love Train – The O’Jays

This song just makes me want to give the world a big old hug.

2.  Marry You – Bruno Mars

http://youtu.be/gYh9DCN8ads

“Marry You” brings me so much joy. And the above video is the most adorable wedding proposal EVER. Watch it and try not to cry. *sniff*

3. Do You Believe in Magic – The Lovin’ Spoonful

Whenever I hear this song, a montage from my childhood plays in my head. It just fun, and for whatever reason, it reminds me of being a careless kid.

4. She’s A Lady – Tom Jones

http://youtu.be/TMXehqqR8J8

My Mum told me girls used to throw their panties at THIS DUDE when was performing on stage. For reals. Oh, the 70s.

5. The Warrior – Scandal

My favorite part of this song is when she sings, “Bang, Bang” and I get to make hand guns shooting off into the distance. In other news, how weird is this video?

6. Living in America – James Brown

Because Rocky IV. That’s why. ‘Merica.

7. Right Now – Van Halen

This song makes me feel like I can kick the world’s ass. I forgot how much I love this video.

8. Gangnam Style – Psy

My goal in life is to be the kid dancing at the beginning of this video. That kid is awesome.

9. La Copa de la Vida – Ricky Martin

From the time when Ricky Martin wasn’t gay, but he TOTALLY was.

10. He’s a Rebel – The Crystals

The reason I have an affinity for this song is because it was on my Mum’s old “Sweatin’ to the Oldies” VHS with Richard Simmons. Yeah, we did that. It was awesome.

11. I Can’t Get Next To You – The Temptations

This song makes me feel like I can accomplish anything! Except get next to you. But that’s okay. I don’t want to be next to you, because I’m awkward.

12. Get Ready – Rare Earth

There are many versions of this song and this is by far my favorite. Check out this dude killing it on the drums and vocals simultaneously!

13. Good Vibrations – Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch

http://youtu.be/-eSN8Cwit_s

This is one of my favorite songs of all time. Fun fact: Donnie Wahlberg wrote this song for his kid brother, Mark. When their mother Alma first read the lyrics, she knew it would be a #1 hit. True story. I learned it on Wahlburgers.

13. I’m Still Standing – Elton John

Elton John has to be one of my favorite people. I have so much respect for him for overcoming depression and addiction and helping many others do the same. He is also an amazing artist, and this song lifts me up whenever I’m down!

Stay tuned for the Typical Broad’s Awesome Mix Vol. 2 next week!